I had my first epiphany this February
February was life-changing. I had my first epiphany this month. In the first week of February, after hitting another low in life, I wanted to give up everything. But because I'm stubborn, I thought of giving it another try. I wrote what I wanted from life on a piece of paper. Then I did what I do best - I planned. I made a daily routine in which I included the activities to bring me closer to my goals. (By the way, my goals are to have peace of mind, attain happiness in things I have, and live a simple and meaningful life.) And most importantly, I made an effort to delete what was toxic or unnecessary. This is what I changed:
- I kicked off all the negative and bad influences - people, food, circumstances. I don't log into Facebook as I don't get positive vibes from it. I'm being picky with food and exercising portion control. But the challenge was to kick-off bad circumstances as they are never under our control. The best way, in my opinion, to deal with a bad circumstance is to face it head-on. Don't try to avoid it. Face it as and when it happens. If you can't find a way to deal with it in real life, deal with it emotionally. Make peace with it - forgive and move on. Don't leave it hanging there. It would disturb you in the future.
- Rekindle old bonds. In a research on bypass patients, it has been found that those who have faith and social circle, live longer post-surgery. After reading this research, I thought of giving it a try. I reconnected with old friends and relatives. They were very welcoming. I'm bad at remembering dates. I also pledged to remember all birthdays, anniversaries, and milestones of friends and relatives, and congratulate them. To inculcate faith, I started worshipping like I did many years ago. I practice the same rituals minus the expectation. I worship to be at peace with myself, not to please God.
- My weight issue is unmanageable. It caused a lot of stress. This month I changed my philosophy. I exercise, eat a healthy meal, and meditate - not to lose weight but to form a healthy lifestyle. I don't weigh myself. Whether or not I'm losing weight, I want to imbibe these good habits. Hopefully, I will reach my dream weight one day. I call it 'Not Stress Attached' method!
- I'm good at multitasking. But I don't multitask now. The problem with multitasking is it takes the fun away. And I don't want to live a mechanical life. If I'm cooking, I want to enjoy it. If I'm watching TV, I want to enjoy it, too. Now, I multitask only when it's absolutely necessary.
- I try to live in the moment. Brain is a habitual wanderer. You try to sleep and brain wanders off and makes a list of unfinished tasks. You are talking to a friend, it goes off to an imaginary land and thinks of countless replies, none of which you say to your friend. Hence, you don't listen, sleep early or do things the way they should be done. I'm trying to live in the moment - good, bad, ugly. I want to experience the present. My mind wanders off. I try to bring it back. I say 'Excuse me, could you please repeat' and listen to all the conversations. I learned this trick from meditation.
With these, I hope the rest of the year is better. Or at least, now I know how to make it better. On writing front, I wrote/shared the following in February:
The going-away February gift: I'm the first runner-up in Vodafone #CelebratingSuper contest on Indiblogger.
How was your month? What do you think of the changes I made? Any suggestions for improving them?