Why am I a modern day Meera?


Whenever I try to write something about you, I fail. You are not my ex. You are not my friend. You are a heartbreak that I never allow to heal. You've been special that way ever since I met you. Remember the first online chat we had. With our fake profile pictures, quirky usernames, we were trying to hide our real identity. Fortunately, our true-selves were reflected in the short sarcastic sentences we typed. I knew, you were my type! However, I was not. And that makes me curse the destiny. Why God, why?

You were the missing piece that fitted perfectly with the jarred edges of my heart. I wanted our relationship to grow. It grew too. We had a label-less relation. We could tell everything to each other. We could go missing from each other's lives with no explanation. We could jump in and carry on as if nothing changed. Well, nothing could change - no man was man enough to take your place in your absence! You were the only one who understood me the way I wanted. You were the only man to arouse me with short pauses on the telephone. You were the only man who was a part of my every fantasy. Actually, you still are. Twelve years and you can still rock my world with a simple reply on my Facebook status. The forlorn lover in me tries to decipher the hidden meaning of your comments. If that's insane, so be it!

I would rather live my moments of craziness than let the maturity snatch away one real happiness I have. You are the pain that brings joy. You are a joy that is a lifelong agony. You are one chapter of my life that is abridged. Abridged, not complete. So, if someone wants to write an unrequited love story, ours should be the one. Not that it would be the best. But because if being a writer, I can't write it, someone should untangle the emotions and write my love story for me. Only then, I would know - Why am I a modern day Meera?

Yours truly,

Comments

  1. That's a unique take on modern relationships. Well done, Meera :)

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  2. That was loaded! Unrequited love, a love that has no strings, no tags, no expectations....beautifully done Saru! Hum to ho gaye magan!

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  3. Loved it totally, completely. The subtle yet so intense romance filled my soul with a joy. Great work Saru.

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  4. ooh romantic... God bless you BOTH saru... :)

    Bikram's

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  5. Extremely beautiful compositon.

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  6. Let me write this love story. This is a super piece. I guess every reader reading this will have some memories in flashback. I had so many

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    1. That's so good to know. Thanks for reading, Anindya!

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  7. Wow! This one was seathing with emotion. There was a rawness in this which cut through. Well done. This piece resonated.

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  8. Felt like this is a page out of a novel. I was able to feel the emotions here, Saru. Too good!

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  9. Bonding, yet no bondage . No strings attached. Only you can write like this Saru. Reading this was like seeing an art...God bless you.

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    1. That's one of the most beautiful comment ever, Ranjana.

      Can't thank you enough! <3

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  10. Deep...there is a meaning to every sentence here...Interesting and thought provoking. Well written.

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  11. Your soulful highlights on modern relationships actually made me smile at the end. Beautiful dear :)

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  12. That's the truth of modern day relationships. I think it can be a perfect preface to an exciting YA novel :)

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  13. You were the missing piece that fitted perfectly with the jarred edges of my heart...Aahh Great work Saru, struck the right chords :)

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  14. Beautiful take on love and put in such unique way. Loved reading this piece.

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    1. Thank you, Swati. It's always good to hear from you.

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  15. 'I knew, you were my type! However, I was not.'
    ...loved this tragic realization!

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  16. Your pen expresses love in myriad ways but always with a poetic touch.A modern Meera? Nice take.

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  17. Beautiful depiction of the modern day Meera with words that sunk into the heart. I have many such unrequited love. Some relationships are felt within and difficult to understand.

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    1. True that, Vishal.Love is a complex emotion. Too difficult to understand.

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  18. It touched a chord..so beautifully written!!

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  19. Isn't it interesting that some relationships are best label less. The beauty of it lies in that only. Lovely post !

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  20. In a scenario where love breeds upon habitual fondness, this write up surely gives a meaningful perspective to love. True, few relationships never find a name and it's better to leave them there rather than eroding the beauty of it by trying to define it.Loved how you ended this subtle write up! :)

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    1. Well said, Srishti. Enjoy what we have, and till we have it. And thank you for a generous comment :)

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  21. 'I would rather live my moments of craziness than let the maturity snatch away one real happiness I have.'

    Bawri Basanti, I love this line. It says so much, everything and nothing at all. Do a book on it. Love is such a complex thing to define. Terrific.

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    1. Gosh I again commented and read it with a second eye. That's the beauty of your words.

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  22. Dats love.. neither modern nor traditional..jst love..love where there is joy and pain both at d same time.d pain of nt being d " his type" and d joy of finding dat "missing piece"..somewhere hidden is d anxiety of dat awaited reply which wen got jst melt away all pain..all anger nd leaves u with a fresh fragrance of love.w wonderful dear Meera..jst awesome..

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