Celebrating 10 Years in North America

Exactly 10 years ago I came to North America. It has been a roller coaster ride. I have seen more downs than ups. But those experiences have made me the calmer, happier and wise woman I am today. None of it has been easy. Those who know my story would say Alok committing suicide and me being stuck in a mental ward was the lowest point of my life. It was not. The lowest point came last year in 2020. After his death, I came back to Canada and had major surgery in 2019. To my shock, in less than a year fibroid resurfaced causing extreme discomfort. In September I was prescribed hormones to control my medical problem and as a preventive measure for cancer. That destroyed me completely. I experienced the same sadness I felt when I rode with Alok's coffin from Delhi to Ambala. As if it was not difficult, pandemic, joblessness and losing all streams of the revenue made it impossible for me to survive even a single day.

Because I have seen the ugliest side of mental health, I knew I needed help. I called my doctor for 2 days asking for help. I got help. I took 3 or 4 therapy sessions. I didn't complete the therapy sessions which, by the way, was not right. But I took a vow to do all it takes to build every aspect of my life. So 10 years after coming to North America and after surviving what all I have -- I can finally say -- I am in a better place.

For people who have been a part of my journey, I want to share, I am finally studying for a better career, I'm working on my dream project and I  have launched my line of merchandise.  I will finish my book very soon and I will now accept every creative opportunity that will come my way. I also have embraced the idea of keeping my mind open for a partner. If I will meet someone who will add to my happiness and growth, I will give that relationship a chance.

Lastly, I believe we all are struggling in one way or another and I want my struggles to be something my friends, family and followers can be proud of.

Love and gratitude to all of you,

And a lot of positivity for the world,


P. S. This post was first published here


  1. Lots of love and positivity Saru! I know you since 2013 and you are one of my favorite writers.

  2. Kudos to you Saru Ji. Have been a follower of yours posts. Now I know the person not through her posts but through the knowledge of whatever she has undergone and survived. Good luck to you for everything in your present and future life. You are truly a role model for every struggler.

  3. I kept visiting your blog several times in the past 2-3 years but the last post which I saw was about completing 7 yrs in blogging. There was no update about neither at your blog nor at Indiblogger where you used to share your posts. I thought of texting you on fb but suddenly I read a post wherein I came to know sudden demise of Alok sir. I was shocked to know that... It was a sad news to know... And today when I visited your blog, I saw some new posts... Was not aware about the surgery you went post Alok sir demise... You have fought a lot and I must say. You are back to blogging , this is a good thing and also, I would like to wish you all the very best for your upcoming book which I will read for sure, once published. Do let me know once published.. Also, best wishes for your dream project....


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