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Monday, January 25, 2016

Date with an old song and lost friends



With Hindi songs playing on the radio, I soaked myself in the gorgeous sunset in sub-zero weather. A few seconds later, RJ played the next song and brought back a sea of memories. Song was from a movie that released in 2001. I was in college, too worried for my House Exams that I skipped watching it with my friends. I irked with jealousy when they hummed this song. Apparently, the movie was spectacular, like its cast. I vividly remember thinking of being in a better place, with a new gang of girls, and without those eccentric friends. And, hoping that time would change for better!

15 years later, time has certainly changed. I am without those friends. They are with new ones. And, I am sipping tea with Bollywood music and sunset as my companions. Is it destiny? Am I lonely? No, it’s time. It’s wicked. It’s powerful. Above all, time is a trick master. It tricks you to dream about future and when you reach that ‘future,’ it makes your past unbelievably good. You feel like an idiot to let it go without enjoying it to the fullest. Your only wish remains - to time travel and re-live those moments you once cribbed about. You write memoirs, reminisce about it and share it with your new friends. Past somehow becomes an untapped opportunity. And, you were naive to think that things would change for better. No, they don’t! ‘Everything is in the present,’ your mature self rationalise. With guilt of letting the past go, you take a vow to collect every little bit of happiness in a little box and make a ‘time capsule’ for future. Ignoring the fact - you are still thinking about future, not enjoying the present. Sadly, you are lost in the labyrinth, which is too difficult to decipher, much like your own feelings.

The cycle continues... you work hard with only one thing in mind - a bright and happy future. This nonchalant attitude keeps you going, until one day when you listen to a song on a radio or stumble upon an old classmate on Facebook. Then, you take a break to take account of your life. You realise you’ve become a slave of time and its three dimensions -  past, present and future. You live either in your past or for your future, never in the present. Isn’t it funny that as I am writing and you are reading this - a part of us is lost in another world. Maybe, ‘what to cook for dinner tonight?’ We are tied at the strings and time controls over moves. But don’t think that time has only controlling powers. It heals too. It makes you a better person. It teaches to value love, family, friends and things you take for granted. Because, like time, even these things need to be respected.

I finished my tea and switched off the radio, the thought of enjoying ‘present’ took a backseat the moment I stepped into daily chores. I know, memories will knock to make me miserable. Future will keep me awake with worry. And present like always, will smile - too busy to say anything. As far as I am concerned, I will be struggling through all these, trying to make sense of my life. Will I learn from it? I think, only time will tell.

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34 comments:

  1. I know that feeling of being swept to good old days by a song. It's a lovely feeling though.

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  2. A brilliant and insightful piece of writing! We know we have to appreciate what we have, but human nature seems to find it hard to remain in the present...

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    1. So true, we always seek solace elsewhere.

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  3. Bful as always
    Like they say Time and tide wait for none but pursuit to make the most of it should b on

    BTW what is that 2001 song :)

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    1. True that, Afshan.

      Song is - zara zara bahekta hai...

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  4. True that. Even if we decide to live in the present, we keep trying to dream about the future, or think about the past. In fact, our present is determined not just by our past, but our vision of the future.
    We humans are stuck in the dance of time.
    I'm intrigued. Which movie was it (with such spectacular cast too)? :P Have a wonderful week Saru.

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    1. Well said, Kiran.

      Movie was Rehnaa Hai Terre Dil Mein

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  5. your has a nice feeling and the truth of the busy life.

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  6. A beautiful post, Saru and I can relate a lot to it, being a nostalgic person myself. It's the sweet and sour ache which accompanies the faded memories, which causes us to revisit and muse on them.

    Very beautiful!

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    1. Right, we have a special connection with our past. Thanks for reading, Rakesh.

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  7. Beautiful. As you said, only time will tell.

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  8. The fact that you made time in the present to introspect on such deep thoughts in itself gives you an edge. Awareness is everything. Being aware of every little detail in the present helps you treasure happy memories for the future. Dreamy musings that made me muse too :)

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    1. Well said, Kala. Unaware, we do things that make an impact.

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  9. Beautifully expressed Saru. We always keep dreaming about the future and when that day eventually comes, we end up thinking about the past and wish we could go back to the good old days. As much as we try to focus on the present, the comforts and the familiarity of the past cannot be let go easily.

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  10. Feeling nostalgic Saru.. In college days eating burger with contribution or sometime sharing it with friends was such a fun ;)

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  11. Because, like time, even these things need to be respected.Beautifully expressed Saru Ji . Being aware of every little detail in the present helps you to make a rich treasure of happy memories for the future really.

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  12. Live a life so worthy that life will learn from you.

    Remember you only live once.

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  13. This happens with me too, so often, especially when I hear songs in radio. I feel there is also a charm in being nostalgic and time travelling through memories. It helps us writers to write some great stuff.

    I loved reading this post. You've expressed your feelings so wonderfully :)

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    1. Hi-fi!

      And thanks for a beautiful comment, Purba :)

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  14. That is why it is being said to enjoy life and live the present to the fullest. So that we make beautiful memories that leave their fragrance forever.

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  15. TIME It’s wicked. It’s powerful. How true!
    Days gone are always wonderful!

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    1. So true, we realize that in retrospection.

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  16. "Isn’t it funny that as I am writing and you are reading this - a part of us is lost in another world."
    This is so true.. Nice post :)

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